I've came to the place where everything is laid bare before me. Is my life pleasing unto Him? Is my actions an act of worship towards Him? Am I a hypocrate? I can safely say YES. Who is Jesus to me? Is He the LORD over my life or is He someone whom we run to when we face problems? Is Jesus God or a Forgiveness Machine, one we run to when we trangressed against Him?

I guess it is time that we re-evaluate our relationship with God. It is time we confront ourselves with the truth, rather than sweeping it under the carpet and pretend everything its ok. No more deceit within ourselves. Be truthful. Before the LORD moves, before Revival falls, we still have time to prepare ourselves, to concerate ourselves.

O how we love to have everything our own way. What a rebellious and stiff-necked people we are! How we have filled our hearts with the things of this World, turning away from the LORD our God and have dug cisterns, cracked cisterns that hold no water(Jeremiah 2:13), our minds occupied by the things of this World, lifestyles which does not please Him, whilst we dare to profess that we're Christians! What a hypocrate we are, what a hypocrate I am!

I can't take it anymore. The internal struggle within me. Whilst one part of me desires nothing more than to serve God and to love Him alone, the other part is just so evil. Sin….sin….sin….again and again and again. Until I can't take it anymore. Many time have I abused the Grace of God, many times have I grieved His heart. How am I able to live a victorious life in Christ like this?

I must confront my struggles head on. No more compromises, no more hiding. If I want to truly follow Christ, to be His disciple, I must count the cost and carry the Cross. I must let Him shake me, to shake out things that hinders our relationship, until I'm unshakeable no more. Only by settling the issues in my heart and putting it at the foot of the Cross will I truly be at peace, will I be ready to be used by Him, when the Time comes.